Happy Valentines Day! I hope your Valentines Day was lovely and filled with chocolate.

If you were missing childhood Valentines cards or the 90’s today, this post from Buzzfeed has you covered. Both merged together in hilarious harmony.

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I’m mildly obsessed with the song “Let it Go” from Frozen. It started out just another song to add to my collection of Idina Menzel’s songs (…in my top 3 favorite singers…) but it’s insanely  catchy and I actually really like it. If you haven’t seen the movie, GO. It’s cute. I will watch it again. While Idina’s voice makes the song, all of the covers on YouTube are actually really great. Like this one (found via College Prepster) and this one.

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Have you been watching the Olympics? I pretty much only watch the ice skating portion. I was in love with the pairs this year! Such talent! While watching, I couldn’t help but think about whether each pair dates each other or whether they just have ice chemistry. Luckily, Shape was wondering the same thing.

I’ve been baking and experimenting with a lot of different breads but none of them have turned out right unfortunately. Instead of coming up with my own new recipe tomorrow, I might just have to make this Peanut Butter Banana and Honey Bread. I can’t think of any bread combo that sounds more delicious.

 

 

Have a nice night!

 

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If You Met Me Today…

When Myspace was a thing, I was always into posting surveys about myself. My favorites were the A-Z list of random facts. 

I see people do “10 Things About Me” or “Random Facts” posts all the time which got me thinking about something I never really thought about. 

As we get older, the things people know about us gets to be less and less. Think about it. When you talk to someone, you connect on or tell them what you’re doing now. All the important things of before get left behind.

So, I’m starting a new thought process meme: If You Met Me Today, You’d Never Know–Five things about yourself that people in your past might know, but no one you met today would. 

If you met me today, you’d never know, 

1. I play(ed) the violin.
2. I have a degree in journalism (and did a minor in music). 
3. Half of my schooling was spent at art schools.
4. I used to be overweight.
5. I’m in a sorority. 

 

Your turn! 

Sharing Saturday

I’ve got a ton of work this weekend and in order to stay on track with studying, I often take little breaks to keep me focused. Some things I’ve found and liked:

This website is really interesting! 

I keep seeing breads, cupcakes, etc, with sweet potatoes. This sweet potato cinnamon bread looks deliiicious! 
and this sweet potato cake? gimme.

I’ve never been a big tea fan but lately, I’m enjoying it. I walked by a Davids Tea the other day without going in and I am so tempted to go back after eying these seasonal flavors. Coffee cake? Chocolate? I might have to take my first trip there soon.

Want a protein packed cookie dough? Quick recipe:
One container plain greek yogurt
1 tablespoon peanut butter
1.5 tablespoons coconut flour
1 tsp. vanilla
sprinkle of stevia
Chocolate chips
Mix and dig in! 

 

Tuesday Thoughts and Things

I had a midterm today so my writing capabilities are gone with my brain for the day. 

I like to give myself five ten minute breaks every half hour  twenty minutes or so when I’m studying to keep my mind fresh, my eyes clear and my focus time distraction free. In all honesty, I don’t have to take a break every twenty minutes but I do take them fairly often, even to just stand up and walk around for a second.

During these breaks, I found a few good things this week to share:

All of a sudden, I’m loving candy corn. I used to HATE these little candies. They were always gross to me. One day a few weeks ago I had a piece and decided I like them. I now have a bowl on my table which was a bad idea. Apparently I’m not the only one that hated this Halloween staple though.

This article from Buzzfeed is me. I’m not even sorry about it.

I love when people do funny stuff with babies and these dad/baby daughter selfies are no exception.

and when babies do cute things, like this one who has the most emotional reaction when her mom sings to her. Precious.

How to take good food photos on Instagram

 

Have a good night!

Thoughtful Thursday: Disordered Eating

I didn’t feel like posting yesterday but I realized sometime in the morning that it was a semi-important day in my life. Two years ago yesterday, I stepped on a scale in front of 50 people after a grueling 15 minute workout and vowed never to see that number again. I was sweating not only from jumping jacks, push ups and mountain climbers but from the realization that I was 230 pounds. That that number was being seen, and written down, by coaches and the people standing near me. From that day forward, I changed my life.

Beofre:After

(2011 and the other day)

It’s funny–well, not really, but during those eight weeks, I was more relaxed about food than I have ever been in the last 2 years. I knew how much to eat, what to eat and fueled my body for the intense workouts at 5:30 a.m. every day. It’s afterwards that got me.

I fell into a spell of carbohydrate and calorie fear recently. Even though I never tracked my food after those eight weeks, I counted carbs in the back of my head and did my best to restrict them. For a while, I wasn’t afraid. I knew what to do to continue losing weight and to not gain and I did it. I ate healthy, I exercised–I knew the ropes. I had a sustainable lifestyle and could eat as I pleased.

More recently though, somewhere near my switch to a Paleo lifestyle/a little before, I developed this intense fright of food. Fruit was bad, grains were bad, carbohydrates that didn’t come from vegetables were bad, dairy, also bad. Sugar, worst. I spiraled deep down into a Paleo hole where I tried to listen to my body and failed.

I tracked my food for the first time a few weeks ago and discovered I was eating somewhere near 800/900 calories a day with very little carbohydrates and too much protein and fat. It’s no wonder I didn’t always feel 100%, my weight loss and muscle development plateaued and my hormones got all out of whack. Who knows what other bodily signals I’ve ignored.

To just maintain my weight, I should be eating over 2000 calories a day. For the amount of activity I do everyday, I could eat even more.

I unintentionally gave myself an eating disorder and was starving.

This realization came to me the other day when I really wanted oatmeal for breakfast but wouldn’t eat a whole serving because it would use up my carbs. The next day I wanted a smoothie, but, bananas, they have so much sugar. I then realized that even before becoming Paleo I never ate bread and rarely ate other grains because I was nervous about using up all my carbs. I had to mentally prepare before eating something like ice cream or anything I didn’t normally consume and attempt to avoid the overwhelming guilt that accompanied the meal.

I’ve decided to stop being Paleo, to try and eat normally and to rid myself of the fear of food. I preach health and balance yet I’m the worst offender. This needs to stop.

A few weeks back I decided my primary fitness goal for the next year is to build muscle and get strong. To do this, I would need to eat. A lot.

So far, it’s been both simple and difficult. Eating things I’ve cut out in the past has proved to be hard. I bought bread and cereal for the first time in months the other day, ate a yogurt with peanut butter (something I used to have every single day for breakfast) and have tried to be more relaxed. I have been writing everything down, tedious, but apparently necessary. I’m currently trying to revamp my metabolism which is a slow process but something that will be worth it in the end.

Two years later, I’m 89.5 pounds lighter, a million times stronger and have a tiny bit more confidence.  For the next year, I can only hope the latter two grow even more.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

I used to be really good at starting things when they were assigned/when I thought of them/etc. Project assignments given three weeks before they were due began that day. Then, I got to college. Where syllabuses with assignments were thrown into folders and everything got done too late for my liking. I took a prolonged pitstop at Procrastination Station.

This made me CRAZY. I used to be good at getting stuff done and I knew it yet I continued to do it anyway, or at least up until my last semester.

It got me thinking of the concept of “tomorrow.” As a child, tomorrow is literal. Tomorrow, I will wear rain boots. Tomorrow, I will go to school. Tomorrow, I will color.

A child will say and do those things with no apprehension. If they planned on it, it’s probably going to happen. To them, tomorrow is an actual day. It’s Thursday. Friday. Saturday.

As we get older though, tomorrow changes. It becomes a never ending cycle of things we aspire to do but simply don’t have the time. Tomorrow, I will read some of that book or tomorrow, I will go to the gym.

We take what we know as being planned and manipulate it into a day that continues to come, but never does. To us, tomorrow loses it’s spot as a day of the week and very easily continues on.

The worst part? It’s so easy to just start something. To just get the first step of many checked off the list.

I say this as I begin in this new chapter of my life. I’m done saying “tomorrow” and ready to start saying “today.”

Some of my tips?

PLANNER. I always have a planner, no matter how organized I am being or not. Having a calendar and a place to write things down is important.

Sticky Notes: I have sticky notes everywhere. Real ones on my desk, in my bag, in my planner and virtual ones on my desktop.

Notebooks: I haven’t done this in a while but I’m going to restart the habit of carrying a notebook everywhere. I have tons of ideas during the day but forget them by the time I get home. Carrying a notebook and writing things down makes it more permanent not only so you remember but so you can follow through.

Evernote: I have the Evernote app on my laptop and phone. When I need to track something or write things down, I put it in here.

My goals for the next few weeks include starting a few projects and following through with some others. Forget tomorrow and start today.

Tuesday Thoughts

Tonight I made PaleOMG’s carrot pudding for a little something extra to add to dinner. Three whole carrots made their way into my stomach. It was that good and I have no shame. In other news, my calves are burning. Two WOD’s including tons of squats, then today’s of box jumps and wall balls. They.Are.Screaming.

I’m sitting here debating whether or not to eat a spoonful of Paleo Notella. Pro: It’s delicious. Con: I have to get up to get it.

I think for the first time ever the lazy in me might win.

In thinking about my Paleo Notella, I was thinking more about healthy desserts.

One of the things I’ve been struggling with the past few weeks is making the decision on whether or not to make some Paleo goodies every now and then (obviously the Paleo Notella recipe shows some of my thought…).

Taking away sugar, grains and dairy in the last few weeks has been great. My skin is clearer, I definitely have extra energy and I have seen definite improvement in the looks of my stomach.  After almost a month, I don’t even miss these food items. Really and truly.

But, what if I do want to eat a cookie? Well, then I can pull out the almond flour, vanilla and coconut oil. I want some whipped cream, so I can easily pull out a can of coconut milk.

The problem lies that making these items goes against the principles originally set: that we should eat the food cavemen ate. They certainly didn’t throw some coconut milk in a Kitchenaid and enjoy over a warm baked, almond flour cookie.

It also makes it difficult to see these items as treats. When something is made without sugar, flour and any of the other things it’s normally prepared with, it’s easy to get caught up in the fact that they are “healthy” or “healthier.”

So where do I stand? In relation to my previous posts on percentages and stuff, I believe that making the occasional goodie to fit your dietary requirements is needed. It can be healthy, as long as it’s viewed as a treat despite the fact that it’s made out of delicious ingredients. It is important to feel included sometimes or just satisfy a craving for something sweet and/or tasty.

Many people that follow dietary restrictions are against this philosophy but I think that is just another reason choosing your own diet is so great. You choose what to put into your body. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to.